Britney Spears has finally been able to stand the fuck up in court and share her story after years of being under what she’s described as an “abusive” conservatorship, Variety reports.

The singer gave a 30 minute speech to Judge Brenda Penny where she demanded her own attorney, to reduce the amount of therapy she’s forced to partake in, and that she wants to be able to get married and have a baby of her own accord. Throughout the hearing, she revealed she hasn’t even been able to remove her IUD.

“I have an IUD in my body right now that won’t let me have a baby and my conservators won’t let me go to the doctor to take it out,” Spears said. “I wanna be able to get married and have a baby.”

She said she intends to sue her family for how they’ve treated her.

“I told the whole world I’m happy — it’s a lie,” she said. “I’ve been in denial. I am traumatised. I’m not happy. I can’t sleep.”

It was actually Britney’s decision for the hearing to be public so that people could understand what she’s been going through.

“I want to own my money, and for this to end, and my boyfriend to drive me in his fucking car,” she said.

“I don’t feel like I can live a full life,” she said. “I don’t even believe in therapy. I think you take it to God.”

Britney’s court-appointed attorney said the singer has not yet asked him to file a motion to end the conservatorship, but that he would do so if she asked him, although he declined to go into further detail about this.

When the judge suggested that the conservator who oversees Spears’ medical matters should file a care plan to change up her treatment, Britney Spears interjected: “I have to be in agreement to this care plan. I can’t be forced to do what I don’t want to do.”

Meanwhile attorneys for Britney’s parents, Lynne and Jamie Spears, said: “[Her dad] is sorry to see his daughter suffering and in so much pain,” she said. “Mr. Spears loves his daughter and misses her very much.”

He also praised Britney for her “courage” in speaking to the court.

There was a short break, and after which Britney reportedly wishes for the proceedings to be sealed. Her court-appointed attorney said he would discuss with her whether or not to go ahead with terminating the conservatorship and the possibility of hiring her own lawyer.

“I will abide by whatever decision she makes in that regard,” he said.