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In a recent interview with Marie Claire, actress, comedian and generally fairly stellar individual Amy Schumer opened up about her first sexual experience, which she says was “not consensual.”
Schumer said that she was reminded of the incident, which occurred at the age of 17, when going through her old journals while working on her upcoming book, The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo.
The 35-year-old comedian told the publication, in its August issue:
“I didn’t think about it until I started reading my journal again. When it happened, I wrote about it almost like a throwaway. It was like, ‘And then I looked down and realised he was inside me.’ He was saying, ‘I’m so sorry’ and ‘I can’t believe I did this.’ ”
Schumer said that the man in question is no longer in her life, and that while the episode was “not a good one”, she has no desire to punish him for an incident that took place 17 years ago, adding “there are just so many factors.”
When writing her memoir, Schumer reread the journals she kept between the ages of 12 and 23, and said she found the experience to be “really painful.” “I felt bad for myself,” she said. “The ugliness, the embarrassing shit – it’s all there.”
She also spoke about her relationship with Chicago-based furniture designer Ben Hanisch, whom she calls her first real boyfriend. She told Marie Claire:
“I feel like Ben is the first guy who’s really been my boyfriend. There are guys who, if they heard me say that, would want to punch me in the face, but, yeah, it’s the truth. Being in love is the scariest thing in the world. You just want to fucking cry and scream. I can’t handle it. Every time we say goodbye, I think ‘This will have been a nice last week together.’ Or I tell myself nothing is real and he’s going to leave me and tell me he never loved me. I feel so bad for him. How exhausting it must be dating me.”
The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo is out in August.
Source: People.
Photo: C Flanigan / Getty.
