Little Mix‘s Jesy Nelson has revealed that she attempted suicide following an endless barrage of cyberbullying from online trolls.
In her upcoming documentary BBC Three Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out, Jessy speaks bravely about the negative impact social media had on her self-esteem, body image and depression.
The height of this pain, she recounts, followed Little Mix’s return to X Factor as guests back in 2013. This is when the online torment became out of control.
“I was sat in bed crying,” she told BBC Three, “thinking, ‘this is never going to go, I’m going to feel sad for the rest of my life, so what is the point in being here?’”
“The only way I can describe the pain is like constantly being heartbroken. I remember going to the kitchen and I just took as many tablets as I could. Then my ex, who was with me at the time, he woke up and was like, ‘why are you crying?’ I kept saying, ‘I just want to die’.”
Jesy was taken to hospital before embarking on a long, but steady, road to recovery. She made a conscious effort to prioritise her mental health, involving therapy, maintaining an open dialogue with those around her and distancing herself from the online world.
“It was a long, hard process, because I didn’t want to help myself,” she told the Guardian. “But it wasn’t until I deleted Twitter that everything changed for me and I slowly started to feel normal again.”
The documentary will shed light on the harmful impact that social media can have, and recount Jesy’s journey in overcoming her demons.
With R U OK? Day coming up on Thursday 12 September, Jesy’s experiences come at a pertinent time.
Remember to check in with your family and friends this week, and be prepared to listen. My dad once told me that a problem shared is a problem halved. I agree.
Jesy’s bravery in coming forward with her struggles will undoubtably provide support for those currently silenced by their fears.
Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out airs on 12 September on BBC Three over in the UK.
If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide or suffering from mental health issues, please call Lifeline on 13 11 14, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467. If you are in immediate danger, call 000.